DIRECT RESULTS.

This one is being written with a very heavy heart. About a week after I got to the rehab I met a dude I will call E. for the sake of this blog. E and I automatically became real cool friends, we were both around the same age, we were both in rehab for alcohol abuse, we both had kids around the same age, and we were the only 2 blacks in the place. E had some sort of rare form of cancer in his eyes that was making him lose his sight slowly but surely. During our stay in rehab I would help him with any paper work he had to fill out because he couldn’t see and he wouldn’t trust anyone else to do it for him. E was a funny dude he had jokes from sun up to sun down, he made being in rehab bearable. E completed rehab a week after I did and it seemed he was going to be just fine.

E always had his 4 daughters with him, their ages from 2-13 and he LOVED those girls with all his heart. E hated the fact that he was going blind, he talked about the fact that he would never be able to see his girls walk down the aisle at their weddings when they grow up. He had shared with me how messed up it as that he once had sight and it was slowly diminishing. With all the problems he faced he had 1 problem he just couldn’t come to terms with and that was the fact that he wanted his wife back more than anything else on earth. Like me E had caused major destruction in his marriage because of drinking and treating his wife unlike she deserved to be treated.

Being that we were both going through similar marital situations we talked all the time about how we messed up and would even strategize on how we could win the hearts of our wives again (LOL).  As the months past and E seen no results changing in his marital situation his depression grew stronger and stronger, and next came the drinking again. He has been able to maintain his drinking to a minimum and didn’t display the irate behavior that he had before rehab. The last time I saw E was last Thursday, I had went by his house to check on him (as I always did when I couldn’t get him on the phone) and I had noticed that he was taking his medications for his eyed, depression, smoking major weed, and drinking alcohol. I told him that night that I was a very dangerous mixture and he needed to stop doing it before it caused major damage. Over the weekend I spoke to him and he invited me over to play XBOX Kinect with him and his kids but for some unknown reason to me I declined the invite and stayed home with my sisters, I called him the next day to see what his plans were for the super bowl game but got no answer from him. I had been trying to reach him all week with no answer but last night on my way to his house to check on him I made 1 final call to his cell and his mom answered telling me he was found dead in his home Tuesday, no autopsy report has been made final yet but his mom says it is believed that he had a massive Heart Attack. All I know is that this is very hard for me to lose a friend and someone who fought as hard as he could to stay clean but fell victim to this disease, I just pray for his soul, kids, and family. I know in my heart that if it was a heart attack that it was caused from a direct result of this disease called ALCOHOLISM he was only 31 years old and cut short by this thing.

R.I.P. MY DUDE YOU WILL BE MISSED…