Trials and Tribulations: Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.

Trials and Tribulations: Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.: "Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.: 'The other day a volunteer from the rehab I was in called me to do a 3 month follow up on my s..."

Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.

Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.: "The other day a volunteer from the rehab I was in called me to do a 3 month follow up on my sobriety, he asked quit a few questions about be..."

Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.

Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.: "The other day a volunteer from the rehab I was in called me to do a 3 month follow up on my sobriety, he asked quit a few questions about be..."

Trials and Tribulations: Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.

Trials and Tribulations: Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.: "Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.: 'The other day a volunteer from the rehab I was in called me to do a 3 month follow up on my s..."

Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.

Trials and Tribulations: SEPARATION ANXIETY.: "The other day a volunteer from the rehab I was in called me to do a 3 month follow up on my sobriety, he asked quit a few questions about be..."

SEPARATION ANXIETY.

The other day a volunteer from the rehab I was in called me to do a 3 month follow up on my sobriety, he asked quit a few questions about being sober and how it made me feel. After telling him it made me feel good and how I constantly go to AA meetings he asked me a question about my wife, and how we were doing since I got sober. After a kind of weird laugh I gave him the link to my blog and made him aware that I don’t like talking about the situation much. After he read all the that I have been writing he actually called me back and asked how have I manage to stay sober through it all, after we shared a long laugh I told him that it really isn’t me keeping my sober but the grace of GOD.  After all of that he still asked me how I felt about being separated from my wife (wow) did he not read the whole blog? Since he didn’t get an answer because I hung up on him (I HATE IGNORANCE) I will write about it.

Being separated from my wife is like a gut wrenching feeling that won’t go away, it a constant heartache that won’t leave no matter how much I try to force myself to force myself to get her out of my head. It’s a feeling of losing a part of yourself, your better half perhaps. I hate the fact that my biggest supporter is no longer even a fan, I hate the fact that I can’t even pick up the phone to call her and tell her about my day, I hate the fact that she has decided to move on with another, I hate the fact that our kids are now victims  of a broken home, I hate the fact that she has them around her new boyfriend, I hate the fact that my daughter told me that my wife’s boyfriend is my sons father, I hate the fact that our kids are having a hard time dealing with our mess, I hate the fact that I don’t live with the only woman I ever LOVED enough to have kids with and marry, I hate the fact that I don’t live under the same roof with my kids, I hate the fact that I can’t see them everyday like I used to, I hate the fact that I can only see them if I come get them and take them somewhere away from my wife’s house because I don’t want to see her boyfriend, I hate the fact that she can’t find true forgiveness in her heart, I hate the fact that I had to walk this last 109 without my wife and want nothing more than for her to be next to me. I hate the fact that her loyalty is to another, I hate the fact that she wants a divorce, I hate the fact that that my son told me he doesn’t what me to pick him up anymore and when I asked why he said because your suppose to live with me, I hate the fact that my daughter has always waken up in the middle of the night and climbed in the bed with us and now I am left to think that now she is climbing in the bed with a man that’s not her father. I hate the fact that my poor actions led to most of this madness.Yes I hate being separated and on the verge of divorce and I didn’t even mention lonely, and how I have a criminal court appearance in the morning and she won’t be next to me for support, or how I had to grieve the death of my man E all alone without my wife even saying sorry for the loss of your friend.    

I know everyone wants to say things will get better or have lots of advice like you will find someone else but I don’t want anyone else I want my wife back. Life simple in the order that they are suppose to be, raising my family with both parents in the home happily together.

NOW THAT’S HOW I FEEL ABOUT BEING SEPARATED!!!

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