Day 92 of my sobriety started out a little crazy, after taking a day trip to my hometown of Queens, NY to celebrate the life of a family friend who was called home we were slammed with mean snow storm that made us spend the night in NY because of the roads. Upon waking up Thursday morning I was made aware of a comment sent to me on Facebook from someone I Love and Respect. This person was really upset with me because of the blogs I wrote about my wife. Before I could respond to the comment a family member of mine came to my rescue. The situation was really upsetting to me because it almost spun out of control to a place that was never intended. Good thing about it is that the person I am speaking of gathered her thoughts and retreated back to the cool person that I know, and with that everyone was able to sit back and let cooler heads prevail. So to that person I say Thank You for being you and to my family member Thank you for always holding me down like grits and checking me when I’m wrong.
I must say that after reading the first blog again I can see how some people would think I wrote it with malice in my heart but it was not meant to be taken that way. When I started this blog it was for my own personal healing as well as helping other recovering addicts going through similar situations that I am dealing with. The thing is; by doing this I have to put my personal business out there for all to see because if I am going to speak on my sobriety I must speak on my hitting rock bottom to get to where I am today. I also admit that after the response that my wife wrote I kind of got emotional with my response and let my things get out of control and for that I am sorry to everyone this has effected in the wrong way.
Now to my wife I will say I am sorry for not being completely accurate in my writings and not putting in more details my wrongs. I have no problem admitting my wrongs and telling what I did. I put you out there in a very negative light and since I can’t take back what I wrote I will go into more detail of my wrongs. If I leave anything out please feel free to correct me.
My wife has always been a very supportive part in my life from the day we met, She has always had my back in all business ventures I tried my hand at, she took care of me during times of unemployment, and she gave me the family I always wanted. During times that I was employed I did help her out with bills but not on a consistent basis and I can’t even begin to justify those poor actions. She did deal with a lot of my crap for a longtime and still I struck out at her with acts of violence. I am very sorry for the things I did to hurt her and my family and though I am very hurt by her recent actions I don’t want anyone to feel like I am a victim in this, for the only victims of all of this is our three kids. We both made vows before GOD, family, and friends to be together forever but I didn’t stand up like the man I was raised to be and take care of my family properly. Now with all of this out of the way I will say sorry again and from now on this blog will be about how I deal with everyday adversity and staying sober. GOD BLESS. WHYME- WHYNOTME
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